Disconcerting - (adjective) - 1. disturbing to one's composure or self-possession; upsetting, discomfiting. 2. confusing, usually in the face of something totally unexpected; perplexing.
I think I feel more like the first definition. Today is the last day of our one-day-a-week classes. We have a professor with an excellent credentials. I have learned so much from him. However, he appears very intimidating. I believe that he is kind, but he expects perfection and places a high value on our learning the subject the right way.
That is the good part. The not-so-good part is when we have to perform to that standard. We are just starting on this new subject, and therefore have so much to learn. Yet, this subject is only 2-credit-hours. Out of 16-hour semester, this does not allow for ample learning time. The result is that we feel like we always come up short. I certainly feel that way.
Most days, I do not want to even try. I thought it would be pointless if my effort is not going to be good enough anyway. My personality does not allow for giving up without trying. So, I try and try. I have already called the professor and explain my concerns. I could have complained some more. In my opinion, though, there is whining and there is complaining in order to make a difference. I have complained once, and got result.
While I still feel overwhelmed about the whole class, it was a manageable situation. I guess I was the only one who stopped complaining. The school did not renew the contract for the professor. I think he is a great professor for making student aspire to a higher standard. Someone from administration should have looked at his syllabus and asked him to explain how he is going to accomplished everything in the time we have.
No one did, and now, I feel, that as students, we lost someone who could have taught us so much more.